I have always been curious about everything. I want to go everywhere, try out everything. As a child, the question I dreaded most was, “What do you want to be when you grow up?” EVERYTHING! I wanted to be a teacher, writer, actor, journalist, scientist, minister, explorer, gardener, cook, photographer, world traveler and radio host. And, if I am honest, I would still like to be all of those things.
What happened? For so much of my life, I let fear hold me back. Far too often I would stand on the sidelines, wishing I had the courage to put myself out there. And when I would scrounge up enough courage to try something, I always seemed to get in my own way and sabotage myself after a promising start. In everything I tried.
Slowly, very slowly, I have learned to build my life around the things I love: Reading, Writing, Gardening, Nature, and Food. I try to integrate these passions into everything, from work to play, because I know I am more productive, happier and more motivated when the things I love are part of my day. The secret to life is to find out what matters most to you, not to anyone else but you, and to make those things a priority.
- The novels that have had the biggest impact on my life
- Brian’s Master Rules for all Projects
- Brian’s Mission Statement, 2009
Brian Beholds started out as one of my earliest personal websites in 2004. I had made a pact with myself that I needed to expand my awareness; I wanted an active part in as many experiences as possible. Beholds seemed an unusual, strong and active word. Over the last decade, while I have never given the site/blog very sustained attention, the idea of Brian Beholds has come to symbolize my philosophy. I am still not as outgoing, proactive or self-disciplined as I would like to be, but having an ideal has helped me to enjoy life so much more, to develop friendships and accomplish many of my goals.
Everything I do leads me back to the same thought: there is a deeper meaning to life in general, and to my life specifically. It is not always clear to me what that meaning is, and perhaps the purpose is to explore that meaning. I am not religious in a traditional sense, but I am curious about all forms of spiritual expression. There are so many ways people express their spirit and spirituality. I know that spiritual thought and practices enhance life immeasurably.
While some people are quite formal in their prayers/meditations, I find a solitary walk wherever I happen to be the most centering and nourishing thing I can experience. For me, I find the link between creativity and spirituality the key to my own happiness.
I seek a greater connection to the people and places around me. I want to understand and appreciate the multitude of life’s possibilities. I made a pledge to myself over twenty years ago that I would explore as many paths in life as I could, be around as many kinds of people as possible, and tell as many stories as possible. This blog has become my chronicle of that journey. I would love to get to know you and hear your story.